I guess the song will say it all. Have a good one in England, Sarah!

Thursdays will never be the same

Life’s been such a journey ... for me

It hasn’t been easy but that not what I’m here to say

The ups and downs are always gona be there

I guess its so much easier, when there is a friend who cares...

Oh gal, Thursdays from now will never be the same

Driving by, I’ll remember those times,

Sometimes the things we share, no one can understand...

Will you remember these lines, I don’t want to say goodbye.

What lies before us, is beyond my mind...

But remember that wherever you are, you’ll be on my mind.

If there is no one to talk to, I’ll be on msn...

I guess worse come to worse, I’m just be a phone call away...

Written @ 6:05 PM

Have I forgotten how to love (what does it mean anymore? I dun know)

Have I forgotten how it feels (so tell me now please, was it even real)

Have I let indifference rip my world... (how fast it came and now gone away)

Have I forgotten how to cry (o man suck it up, perhaps that’s just life)

That's just life and the way it is...

Written @ 5:47 PM

Hi all, just recorded my own cover version of Avril Lavigne's Anything but Ordinary feel like so much things have happened recently and the mental challenges are sometimes just too much... sometimes I just dun want to deal with stuff anymore, dun want to even explain myself anymore... sometime... it really seem like it doesnt really matter anymore.

Written @ 10:29 AM

A night out with the JOKER!

Written @ 1:38 AM

Today 3 July 2008. I drove the Aston Martin DB9. Nice*

Life is filled with ups and downs... Now the scary part is when all these ups and downs both bring you back to the same painful memory... tell me. Now how brown cow?

Written @ 9:27 AM

Alien Sensation

Trying not to think but it keeps getting in/I shut the door but somehow it’s open again/Since it’s here now there is only one thing to say/Could you please... get the hell out of my head!

At the brink of depression, my mind in confusion/People around me, but in their own nation/They speak with tongues of an angel,/but the love that they speak is but a noisy cymbal!

Am I all alone...(3x)/An alien with a sensation

Affection we share does it come with a timer/Does the ringing go when the weekend is over/The truth before me, plain and simple in words/Actions always will speak louder than words!

Don’t people get it, or are they just busy hiding/Behind the wall of ‘cant you see that I’m trying’/Whatever you say ‘cause I’m tired of waiting/Maybe that’s why they say love is so blinding!

Written @ 10:00 AM

Could You wipe this part of me away

All these while its feeding the pain

Wipe away these memories,

Cos it doesn’t mean a thing to anyone, anyway...

So why are You doing this to me

Could it be a part of an answered prayer

A price of sacrifice

I hope it means a thing to someone, someday

So does love live on this one way street

Will I recognize it when it comes by

So does love live on this one way street

Will I turn away and say bye

Even if it comes to me... would it mean anything anymore?

Written @ 3:07 AM

Against All Odds

in that places once again
broken heart causing broken mind
no matter where I look in life
comfort seem no where in sight

everything goes and nothing gain
all the love have turn to hate
is this all I get for service...
loving

Though I know that there are times
when I raise my fist to the sky
you can see anger in these eyes
there is evil, evil...

But God still loves
God still loves
against all odds
against all odds

my God still loves...

Written @ 12:18 AM

Some pictures from Melbourne...

Written @ 9:33 PM

Hi, to whoever's out there, sorry for the long silent... Yeah I'm back from shutting the world outta my life. Thanks to all I have got to know better, deeper through this time. These new found friendships shall be cherished. I spent a wonderful 2 weeks in Chiang Mai Thailand. The place and people... so nice and hospitable. Hopefully I will be able to go back to visit the friends I made there.

For now, life's good... emotion's back to normal, work will be starting soon as we step into the new year. However, now, I choose who to love, how to love... no longer shall I be at the mercy of other's and their ways...

Happy New Year to all, but remember this... The extend of your new year celebration only tells you how bad the last one was... so if 2007 was a damn good year for ya, you should start mourning now... cos it over.

Written @ 7:08 PM

One song... sums it all... all 5-6 years worth!
what beauty? irony...

In The End lyrics

(It starts with)
One thing / I don’t know why
It doesn’t even matter how hard you try
Keep that in mind / I designed this rhyme
To explain in due time
All I know
time is a valuable thing
Watch it fly by as the pendulum swings
Watch it count down to the end of the day
The clock ticks life away
It’s so unreal
Didn’t look out below
Watch the time go right out the window
Trying to hold on / but didn’t even know
Wasted it all just to
Watch you go
I kept everything inside and even though I tried / it all fell apart
What it meant to me / will eventually / be a memory / of a time when I tried so hard
And got so far
But in the end
It doesn't even matter
I had to fall
To lose it all
But in the end
It doesn't even matter
One thing / I don’t know why
It doesn’t even matter how hard you try
Keep that in mind / I designed this rhyme
To remind myself how
I tried so hard
In spite of the way you were mocking me
Acting like I was part of your property
Remembering all the times you fought with me
I’m surprised it got so (far)
Things aren’t the way they were before
You wouldn’t even recognize me anymore
Not that you knew me back then
But it all comes back to me
In the end
You kept everything inside and even though I tried / it all fell apart
What it meant to me / will eventually / be a memory / of a time when I tried so hard
And got so far
But in the end
It doesn’t even matter
I had to fall
To lose it all
But in the end
It doesn’t even matter
I've put my trust in you
Pushed as far as I can go
For all this
There’s only one thing you should know
I've put my trust in you
Pushed as far as I can go
For all this
There’s only one thing you should know
I tried so hard
And got so far
But in the end
It doesn’t even matter
I had to fall
To lose it all
But in the end
It doesn’t even matter

Written @ 7:44 AM

Part 5 1/2: A song a friend wrote for me...

Hey Gene can you hear Him sing
of a love song that is for you and me

It's not the laughter that will make you grow
But the tears and fears when you lose control

You gotta fall, to soar, to see it all
This world of pain and joy and love

Where is the Love, the Hope oh where is God
When your heart grows weary down the road

What would you say when God went through all the same for you
What would you say when God love you the same today

Hey Gene the oceans rise and fall
All place and time will have it's call
When you fall like a cannon ball
It's the hurt you gotta let it go
Oh let it go, let it go
let it go

Let tomorrow have no sorrow
Who will you follow to the end
In the shadows remember your halo
You're the Light of the world

I know you're hurt
I know you're jaded
But God is in control
Where are your dreams
Where are your feelings
When you wished upon a star

I pray that you will soar, stand tall
Hey Big Gene,
It's not by might or knights
to end it right, to end it right
Just let it go, let it go
God is in control

Yours la
Terry Theodore

Written @ 12:50 AM

Part 5: Life’s journey always makes you pause to wonder what God has installed for you ahead. Does it matter or will it surprise me any more then all that has happened. Life’s journey, filled with joy and happiness, with it of cos the opposite, pain and sadness.

So what’s the whole point? That we may be able to collect life tales for the generations of tomorrow? Or so some ass like me can come up with something wise to say or to compose an emo song.

What’s the whole point? What’s the whole point of love? We toy with the idea so we can feel good in it, and wonder why we even venture there when we feel shitty, out of it.

Love inter-twine between logical human expectation and illogical emotional reaction. Haha… when logic meets logic, problems are solved, when illogic emo meets illogic emo, sparks fly… but when logic meets illogic, love is the battlefield.

Now, the rainbow after the rain is no longer there, I guess you only feel it when the rainbow meant great comfort. Well it does, so therefore its hard not having a rainbow. The cruel reality of life is that even when the rainbow fails to appear, life continues to drag you on; you can’t just stop there to wait forever… You are dragged on.

Again, you question, what’s the point of being drag through life. Eventually you learn to get up and get into more comfortable dragging positions because you realize knowing the point of it all wouldn’t stop the pain either… so ya… logic kicking in as emo gets kicked out… 1-0 to logic.

On to the dragged trail! Well we get stronger and tougher, physically and emotionally. We laugh at people who jump back on the emo love trail… haha losers! Then suddenly find myself on the losers side… sigh… Many times we do find ourselves in the ‘I’m an idiot zone’ Alone? Na… look around, you probably find me.

Lyrics to come soon...

Written @ 12:31 AM

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Written @ 8:16 AM

Backslide part 2 – have made my intentions clear to few that I taken to be important to me. Nonetheless I still think no one would bother to read this… Anyway, I want to say it’s sad that even now emergency loves are not as efficient or immediate anymore. Anyway this song was written on a Friday night, I kind of felt quite good not going because I really didn’t see a point. ‘Duh’ Christian remarks had started me on this silent determination to backsliding and never come back… dun get me started on that. Anyway even though short-lived, I feel that the ocean breeze with the sun set did take me over from it all that faithful evening. Thus the song…

海风

太 阳 快 要 下 山 了，今 天 的 工 作 早 已 完 毕

tai yang kuai yao xia shan le, jin tian de gong zuo zao yi wan bi

现 在 不 要 胡 思 乱 想， 就 跟 着 海 风 一 起飞 去

xian zai bu yao hu si luan xiang, jiu gen zhe hai feng yi qi fei qu

飞 车 吹 风 的 感 觉 很 好，漂 亮 太 阳 在 我 面 前

fei che chui feng de gan jue hen hao, piao liang tai yang zai wo mian qian

无 忧 无 虑 是 海 风 的 骄 傲，跟 着 他 奔 我 懂 得 自 由…

wu you wu lÜ shi hai feng de jiao ao, gen zhe ta ben wo dong de zi you…

海 风… 你把 我 的 烦 恼 都 吹 走

hai feng… ni ba wo de fan nao dou chui zou

海 风… this little joy 就 是 找 你的理 由。

hai feng… this little joy jiu shi zhao ni de li you

Written @ 10:08 AM