Hey Gene can you hear Him sing
of a love song that is for you and me

It's not the laughter that will make you grow
But the tears and fears when you lose control

You gotta fall, to soar, to see it all
This world of pain and joy and love

Where is the Love, the Hope oh where is God
When your heart grows weary down the road

What would you say when God went through all the same for you
What would you say when God love you the same today

Hey Gene the oceans rise and fall
All place and time will have it's call
When you fall like a cannon ball
It's the hurt you gotta let it go
Oh let it go, let it go
let it go

Let tomorrow have no sorrow
Who will you follow to the end
In the shadows remember your halo
You're the Light of the world

I know you're hurt
I know you're jaded
But God is in control
Where are your dreams
Where are your feelings
When you wished upon a star

I pray that you will soar, stand tall
Hey Big Gene,
It's not by might or knights
to end it right, to end it right
Just let it go, let it go
God is in control

Yours la
Terry Theodore

Part 5: Life’s journey always makes you pause to wonder what God has installed for you ahead. Does it matter or will it surprise me any more then all that has happened. Life’s journey, filled with joy and happiness, with it of cos the opposite, pain and sadness.

So what’s the whole point? That we may be able to collect life tales for the generations of tomorrow? Or so some ass like me can come up with something wise to say or to compose an emo song.

What’s the whole point? What’s the whole point of love? We toy with the idea so we can feel good in it, and wonder why we even venture there when we feel shitty, out of it.

Love inter-twine between logical human expectation and illogical emotional reaction. Haha… when logic meets logic, problems are solved, when illogic emo meets illogic emo, sparks fly… but when logic meets illogic, love is the battlefield.

Now, the rainbow after the rain is no longer there, I guess you only feel it when the rainbow meant great comfort. Well it does, so therefore its hard not having a rainbow. The cruel reality of life is that even when the rainbow fails to appear, life continues to drag you on; you can’t just stop there to wait forever… You are dragged on.

Again, you question, what’s the point of being drag through life. Eventually you learn to get up and get into more comfortable dragging positions because you realize knowing the point of it all wouldn’t stop the pain either… so ya… logic kicking in as emo gets kicked out… 1-0 to logic.

On to the dragged trail! Well we get stronger and tougher, physically and emotionally. We laugh at people who jump back on the emo love trail… haha losers! Then suddenly find myself on the losers side… sigh… Many times we do find ourselves in the ‘I’m an idiot zone’ Alone? Na… look around, you probably find me.

Lyrics to come soon...

Backslide part 2 – have made my intentions clear to few that I taken to be important to me. Nonetheless I still think no one would bother to read this… Anyway, I want to say it’s sad that even now emergency loves are not as efficient or immediate anymore. Anyway this song was written on a Friday night, I kind of felt quite good not going because I really didn’t see a point. ‘Duh’ Christian remarks had started me on this silent determination to backsliding and never come back… dun get me started on that. Anyway even though short-lived, I feel that the ocean breeze with the sun set did take me over from it all that faithful evening. Thus the song…

海风

太 阳 快 要 下 山 了，今 天 的 工 作 早 已 完 毕

tai yang kuai yao xia shan le, jin tian de gong zuo zao yi wan bi

现 在 不 要 胡 思 乱 想， 就 跟 着 海 风 一 起飞 去

xian zai bu yao hu si luan xiang, jiu gen zhe hai feng yi qi fei qu

飞 车 吹 风 的 感 觉 很 好，漂 亮 太 阳 在 我 面 前

fei che chui feng de gan jue hen hao, piao liang tai yang zai wo mian qian

无 忧 无 虑 是 海 风 的 骄 傲，跟 着 他 奔 我 懂 得 自 由…

wu you wu lÜ shi hai feng de jiao ao, gen zhe ta ben wo dong de zi you…

海 风… 你把 我 的 烦 恼 都 吹 走

hai feng… ni ba wo de fan nao dou chui zou

海 风… this little joy 就 是 找 你的理 由。

hai feng… this little joy jiu shi zhao ni de li you

Currently I am going thru a season of [Back]sliding, calling it as it is… no creativity in there. Documenting my emotions and experiences through these stages of my new found human experience.

Backslide part 1 - which is also my first official Chinese song was written over a time when I felt no one (those who so called love me) really cared. My point is, no one really loves beyond cell and church meetings. Everyone gets into their own busy lives and forgets everyone else’s. To me that kind of love aren’t real… makes it worse when such ‘love’ arises only when things go wrong… in short it’s called ‘emergency love’ or so called hypocritical love. This song demarks disappointment and a last call for hope.

给我一点希望

夜 深 了，一 天 又 过 去 了

ye shen le, yi tian you guo qu le

电 话 无 声， 没 人 想 我

dian hua wu sheng, mei ren xiang wo

存 不 存 在，没 有 关 系

cun bu cun zai, mei you guan xi

到 了 现 在，我 无 所 谓

dao le xian zai, wo wu suo wei

您 答 应 我 会 在 我 身 边

nin da ying wo hui zai wo shen bian

您 说 过 您 永 远 不 会 离去

nin shuo guo nin yong yuan bu hui li qu

过 去 的爱，到 底还 在 不 在

guo qu de ai, dao di hai zai bu zai

给 我 一 点 希 望

gei wo yi dian xi wang

让 我 感 受 您 一 点 的 温 软

rang wo gan shou nin yi dian de wen ruan

让 我 知 道that I really matter…

rang wo zhi dao

给 我 一 点 被 爱 的 感 觉

gei wo yi dian bei ai de gan jue

让 我 感 受 您 无 数 的力 量

rang wo gan shou nin wu shu de li liang

不 要 让 我，不 要 让 我 自己 走 下 去…

bu yao rang wo, bu yao rang wo zi ji zou xia qu